Day Zero - The Question

This is a super quick and easy blog post.

Over the weekend I began listening to an audiobook called The Subtle Art of Not Giving a F*CK. It has so far been an enjoyable read listen. 

There was one part that I heard that got me thinking about my long-term ambitions. The author tells a story of how he had one day imagine that he would be a rock star. It was his life-long goal. However, he kept putting it off because he had a checklist of items he needed to accomplish before he got there. 

This of course delayed him from achieving the goal. He realized that he fell in love with the idea of the result he was trying to achieve, but he didn't actually want it. He filled his time with milestones that led to nowhere. The revelation in his mind was that had he truly wanted the dream, he would have dove right into it and struggled through it no matter what. No milestones or checkmarks would have held him back.

So this got me thinking...

There are a lot of "dreams" that I fantasize about. I have at one point dreamt that I was in the NBA playing alongside Kobe Bryant. At another point in my life, I imagined I would be the next James Bond. In later moments I dreamt of starting a successful business and starting a VR gaming studio. However, I too fell into the trap of creating milestones and checklists. I never did get around to my dreams despite accomplishing the goals I set for myself with those checklists. 

This year was the year I marked off a lot of items on my list. Instead of fully diving into VR or something similar, I decided to finish a degree in IT management, and pursue a promotion at work. I had pictured that as soon as I finished I would learn how to develop for VR. 

Now here I am. A whole week after finishing my MSITM at WGU, and have I started my game dev journey? No. 

Instead, I created another milestone. "I need to learn Shell scripting now, and then python next... then I will do VR."

So this leads me to question myself. Do I want to be a VR game developer or am I just in love with the fantasy of accomplishing something like that? Am I willing to do the late nights debugging code, learning how to create animations through Blender, and watch countless YouTube tutorials to get caught up? 

Today, I can't answer those questions. I love the idea of being imbursed into something I created and having others share that same vision. However, how can I determine if the end result I hope to achieve will be worth the hours of pain it will take to get there? 

Interesting questions I am sure. VR and AR just seem like an incredible future that so many people have been involved with for years, and here I am, a gullible puppy, just wanting to nibble at the door.

Maybe if I can remain consistent in this blog I can help take you on a journey from where I am now, to what I do next. However, who knows if I can stay consistent with anything due to my ADHD. 

All I can say to you, dear reader, is that I think I am starting to ask the right questions now, and maybe, just maybe, I might discover a dream worth pursuing. 

But until then... Thank you for reading.